Ok I have thought a lot about this. Two things that are a big part of my life currently...
Auditioning and Dating.
Two things that I don't particularly LIKE doing. But MUST do in order to live my life.
Every time I go to an audition, I feel like I am stepping into "A Chorus Line"
It's like the opening number over and over again.
"God, I hope I get it."
It's the same thing every time...head shot, resume, filled out application, throw on your character heels, dance your heart out, wait, sing your heart out, wait some more, to just find out that they don't want to see you again.
Sound familiar? For those of you in the biz...this might. It's all "part" of this business. I really detest it. But hey, it has to be done right?
This very art of auditioning is a lot like dating.
(actually I'm thinking about just handing out my head shot and resume at church...then we can just bypass all the awkwardness and disinterest)
No but seriously, how often is it that we go on a date and "hope" that it works out...For me, always. I mean if I didn't think that, then what am I doing on the date?! I was discussing this very topic at a recent audition. That is, how we go into an audition trying NOT to care, because the chances of us actually getting it are slim. But I mean if I didn't care, I wouldn't go to the audition. I always care and I always HOPE.
Same for dating...I always hope that something will work out. I hope he'll call. I hope he likes me. I hope I look ok. I hope he is a nice guy. I hope I get to see him again. I hope, I hope, I hope.
Thoughts during an audition....
*(I HOPE I GET THIS DANG SHOW!!!)*
If I didn't care or hope SO much. I'd stay at home, watching lifetime and eating cookies. But clearly that will not get me ANYWHERE.
All I can do is my best. Be MY best. The right show and the right guy will come along at the right time.
This last audition taught me...sometimes no matter how good or even bad you are...you are just not what they are looking for. It has nothing to do with YOU. This has truth in the audition world and the dating world.
So, what's a girl to do?
Keep auditioning and keep dating. The more you do it, the easier it gets. I really believe if more people just dated, well....you know.
Just cause you go to an audition, doesn't mean you'll get the show. Just cause you go on a date, doesn't mean your gonna marry that person.
Get over it. It's just a date. It's just an audition.
So, I will continue on. Dating and auditioning.
Bring. It. On.
xoxo
Ash
P.S. I have a new found inspiration...Elle Woods holds a special place in my heart. Always. BUT, I think Galinda is going to be inspiring me for the next while =)
"Magic Wands, need they have a point?"
Truth be told, sometimes, directors just aren't ready for your talent. Seriously. Like, maybe you OUTSHINED everyone there...but they can't put someone more beautiful and more talented than the equity actor playing the lead role...she'd pull attention away. Or maybe your audition was just too dang good (I've heard directors I respect and admire say similar things).
ReplyDeleteIsn't that like dating too though? Sometimes, the guy just isn't ready for someone as AMAZING as you. They just aren't up to par, they aren't secure enough with themselves, or maybe they are flat out lazy and don't want to live up to you.
Whatever the case is, I know and understand both all too well. I love you ASHLEY. You're gonna make it...in both fields.