Ok, I know I always talk about being positive. I try my best. Today was a little rough. Thankfully some golden spoon helped make it better :) But, I really need to get my thoughts off my chest.
So, I was kinda seeing a fella. He worked with me. In the beginning, I was hesitant. But then I opened up and really started to like him. I thought things were fine. But then he stopped responding to my texts/phone calls. (and I promise you, I didn't make very many). It frustrated me, because I started to wonder, what did I do? What happened? I wanted an answer SO bad. I STILL want an answer. But it looks like I'm not gonna get one. Rude. Very rude. (I mean really, how old are we?) I don't care who you are...it is just plain rude to ignore someone. As much as I want to punch this douche in the face, he doesn't deserve that effort. I am usually good about moving on...but this one gets me. I am stumped and frankly just plain ticked off. I am a nice person. Who doesn't deserve to be treated like this. This just shows me what a JERK he is. Yes I said it..you are a JERK. I doubt you are reading this, but if you are...then I hope you realize how immature you are. I can't believe I even let myself continue dating you, when I knew in my heart the whole time that I deserved better.
Unfortunately I had to run into this fella today at work. I was already having a rough morning and this just added to it. I just cannot believe that someone would smirk and then just ignore like I do not even exist. Rude.
That is the LAST time I ever date someone from work AND a non-member. Lesson learned.
Don't mess with Elle.
I am sorry guys are jerks. I hope you find someone who actually treats you like they should. Happy April fools.
ReplyDeleteAs always, very theraputic to read your blog. Your honestly is so refreshing and somehow comforting. I love that you are NOT afraid to be yourself. It is really inspiring. I love your whole blog. I laughed when I saw the diet coke and golden spoon pictures. So you, so you. I really miss you. We had so much fun together for the short time we were roomies. Even then I was mia with work, school, and life. Haha. I have been meaning to write you back. For some reason you've been on my thoughts lately. I am sorry to read about your grandma. I know how much you lov and look up to her. You have always said such wonderful things about her. I do hope your family sit gets better. You are an amazing person for not giving up. And this boy... I need details. We'll have to chat. It's hard to have your brain and your heart match up. In your head, you knew you shouldn't date him, and so logically when things don't work out you should be fine, right? But in your heart you still hurt. Life is funny. Ok, well I have to go start/finish a paper. (Something I am sure you don't miss). Love ya very much. And totally jealous you are back at EFY this summer. You will rock.
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