As most of you know, my beautiful, amazing grandmother passed away last Saturday April 30, 2011. This week has been one of the hardest weeks of my life. Yesterday was her service. It was beautiful. I got to speak and most of what I said came from this blog posting. I'm sorry if I keep bringing her up, but she meant so much to me, and now that she's gone, I miss her even more. It all seems so surreal. In some ways I'm thinking, wait come back! Not yet! BUT...in other ways, I'm happy for her. She doesn't have to be in pain anymore. She gets to be reunited with her husband who left this earth so long ago. I know she'll always be looking down on me, cheering me on. I will just miss her sweet voice on the other side of the phone when I would call her. She was my rock. And she was the one I would go to when I just needed to be told that everything was gonna be ok. She was a remarkable woman. Life will go on. It won't be the same, but it will go on. I will have to return to work and keep plugging away. I hope to make her proud.
As I woke up this morning, I was thinking of some funny things that I didn't get to say yesterday. Last Thanksgiving I was making apple pies at my Grandma's house and the phone kept ringing. She would answer the phone and just say "I'm busy, can't talk, my granddaughter is here." And then she'd hang up the phone. I finally told her, "You could just not answer the phone?" Her reply to that was "I can't do that...it might be a hot date calling!!!" I laughed so hard. Another funny thing, was sometime last year, I was speaking in church. She came to see me. She told me afterwards that she was picking out husbands for me. When she told me of a few of them, I laughed because some of them OBVIOUSLY had a girlfriend! She goes "That doesn't matter, they don't have a ring so they are free game!!" Lol. Oh Grandma. If only it were that easy! She also had NO problem pimping me out. Giving away my contact information to some cute guy she would meet! I hope that one day, I will marry a very nice young man that she would approve of. Maybe with her being in heaven she can align the stars accordingly so we can get this show on the road already! ;)
I love my Grandma. She is an inspiration. I miss her so much.
Happy Mother's Day Grandma. <3
xoxo
Ashley
